Have you ever had it? I’m sure we all have at some point. I wasn’t sure what to write about today since I haven’t had much time to put any thought into my posts for the week, so I figured I’d just have a little brain dump. Give you a peak into my crazy, constantly working mind.
This week has been tough for me. I feel like we’ve gotten back into our crazy busy schedule and there’s no time to get it all done. Not unless I don’t want to sleep. 🙂
And with that lack of time comes a lack of things for me to blog about. No time for new recipes, house projects, exercise, even cleaning and organizing. I just can’t seem to find the time.
I wish Little A were better at playing on her own. I’m on the minute I get home from work. The girl doesn’t let me sit for a second to gather my thoughts and relax. And it’s been exhausting. I always find myself putting the TV on more when Huebie’s gone. Mostly because I can just sit and relax, catch up on some blog reading, or Facebook, Instagram, cuddle time even. Just sit and not think too much. I wish I were able to use some of that time to do things around the house, but girlfriend hates having me out of her sight. I guess that comes with the age. Please tell me it will get easier as she gets older?
I’ve been feeling a little down about my hubby getting all of these opportunities with his job. He’s in St. Louis this week getting all trained up on being a manager. Meeting new people, growing his career. I’m of course happy for him, he’s worked so hard over these last few years this is definitely an earned opportunity, but part of me wishes I was doing that. This is where I get torn between family and career. One day I think I want to stay at home with Little A, the next I consider going back to work full time. I’ve definitely put my career on hold to be able to spend more time with our daughter and I don’t regret that decision at all. I do at times, though, find myself a bit resentful of Huebie and all the things he’s doing and opportunities he’s getting while I can’t even get 5 minutes to pee without a little girl coming in crying, “No Mama you don’t have to potty!” I know he doesn’t always enjoy being away from us, but at least he gets a bit of a break from the craziness of our 2 year old. I think part of the reason I have these feelings is because I don’t have any time to do what I want to do. I want to spend time working on our house, cooking, baking. And I just don’t get the time for it. If I had time for myself and the things I really want to do I would probably feel a bit better about it. I really need to find a way to fix that.
Speaking of our 2 year old, the terrible 2’s are definitely in full effect. Girlfriend has got an attitude on her let me tell you. “No Mama! I don’t want to do that!” “No, Mama. I want to keep fussing!” That’s my favorite one. “Stop crying sweetie. No Mama I want to cry!” Oh Lord help me. And just her level of neediness! Like I said above, I can’t do anything without her yelling for me, wanting me to hold her, crying. Ugh.
And her constantly telling me no, she doesn’t have to potty. Only to get her in there and she of course does. Why does it always have to be a struggle?
I think this speaks nicely to my sweet little 2 year old. 🙂
I’m soooo close to having our dining room done. I need to finish painting the trim in the coved ceiling and changing out our new light fixture, but it’s so close! I’m getting a little concerned that my list of goals may not be super attainable for me this year due to our lack of time. It’s taken over a month to finish the darn dining room. And it requires the least amount of painting of any room in our house! But it sure does look good. I’ll post pictures when it’s all finished.
I’m thinking I really need to go see a dermatologist. I have only ever gone when I was in college and my skin was a hot mess. I know, so bad that I don’t go often. But my lines and wrinkles are really bothering me, and I should probably just get a skin check. I’ll add that to the list of things I need to do. 🙂
I’ve also been thinking a lot about what my readers want to see from me. What interests you about my blog? What do you like that I write about the most? Is there any one thing you prefer to read, or are you just happy to follow along with it all? Let me know because I really want to make this a place everyone enjoys coming to.
That’s probably enough for you for today. That’s about half of the thoughts going on in my mind while I wrote this. Now, if only I could translate those thoughts into some more productive posts…..
Don’t worry its gets better within time ..My son is 2 and we are doing the potty training but i feel so bad I work full time and started taking one class for school and they house is getting crazy and the hubby works too. But I realized I need to just do what I can. If I can wash clothes one day it will be ok. I feel bad for not being home. I want to be home so bad. My son always says to me ” you stop it mama no you and don’t that. Its funny.. By the way love your blog
I dread writer’s block. I dread it so much I have at least ten posts in the works at any given time so if it does hit, all I have to do is tweak a work in progress and hit publish. I find writer’s block hits most when you are run ragged (sounds like what you just described). It’s hard to write when you’re not taking time to live and experience.
Yes, Little A will eventually get some independence and she should eventually grow out of her terrible twos. Have you ever considered having a few bins of toys / play sets that you take out when you are desperate for some solitude? I have 5 small bins up in my hall closet and it works like a charm when I want to have some quiet Bible time or take a quick shower.
My hubby goes away at least twice a month on business. I find those times the toughest. It’s challenging and lonely and exhausting to do the solo parenting thing.
I love all your posts, regardless of topic – so I’m easy to please 🙂
Wishing you a lovely afternoon/evening.
We all go through writer’s block sometimes. The good news is that it passes. My hubby has been traveling non-stop lately and it makes blogging hard. I mean REALLY hard. There’s not enough of me to go around with taking care of the house, the three kids, the two dogs, the cat and the hamster. 🙂 But this too shall pass, right?
I go through phases like this. Some posts, I could write and write and the words flow wonderfully…..other times I struggle and I re-read it and think ‘sheesh, my 5 year old could have written this’. I like reading about lifestyle, which covers everything really: parenting, exercise, cooking, places, fashion. xx
I’m the same way! Sometimes I wonder if I’m writing too much, and then I’ll look at another post and think “There are like 10 words in this thing. I can do better than that!”
Thanks for the insight into what you like to read about Louisa!
I haven’t experienced writer’s blog just yet, but then again, I haven’t been blogging as long as some. We’ll see. I can only imagine how you must feel. Maybe your daughter misses you when you are away. I typically get JR in on the helping and fun. Sometimes like when cooking dinner, he wants me to pick him up, etc, but other than that, he usually can help me with chores around the house which he absolutely LOVES by the way 🙂
You are lucky Brittnei. I used to write a lot in high school and college and I would have writer’s block every now and then, even back then. It can be frustrating.
Getting the little’s involved in chores is a good idea! My daughter does like to dust, so that may be something I can have her help with. Thanks for the idea!